Wow, it seemed like just yesterday i was awaiting the DMB cocnert, and now Bootcamp is only 13 days away.  Time flys way to fast, live up all teh chances you can because in moments they will be over and you may never see them again

*Roll up, Roll out, Drink up, and Dance tonight*

~Woody

wow, talk about self esteem boosters right here

oh well, only things that matter now are

17 days -DMB show

54 days -Boot camp

I swore in today, at 1:00 PM Saturday, April 9th 2005.

Ship date - July 11th

OOHRAH

Toning down the night, recalling my last thought. Righteousness today, slavery tomorrow. Bone chilling cold, consumed by all this hate. Warm and tender kiss, simply on the cheek. Twas the day before last, that i saw you once more. Into the night we perish, lieing down before the Lord.

shivering in the bittercold. Wasting away in the brutal heat. Slumping down in the drury fall. Crying for beauty in the rising spring. Year round is the love still spread. Till the day becomes night will i forever sleep again.

Inspired by a tear, held up by this noose. Clogged with the smoke in the room, no more cares remain in my mind. One day i will arise to it, drawing my head up, i share only a smile.

Sitting in my swivel chair, rolling back and forth.

Must ponder what to do, wonder whats needed

This decision of what to do is such a burdon

If only it was as simple to solve with a rock paper scissors game

Pro and con list was so simple when i was 12

Why 5 years later is it so unreal and difficult

Why can't these decisions be a big grin and my daddy tells me hes proud

That no matter what i do its the right one

But there isn't a right decision anymore

What i choose is the right one

What i choose is what i want

But what if its not, what if i choose wrong

Even though i know what it is im going to decide

Still wondering what im going to do

I dont know what i will decide,

I know exactly what i will do

I don't know is what ill do

first, i have 100 days sober today which i was proud of. then after school i got to hang out with jen fracassi for a while, when i got home, i found out i won the photography contest i entered, i won first prize, and then i got a $5 gift certificate in the mail to media play, and then! somehow, i got aletter, saying i was accepted to RIT

:) as much of happiness i have from being accepted im still not gonna go to it.

The few. The proud.

heart felt words, mean nothing as we speak. Rain clouds above, puddles under our feet.  Through the rain i can still see your tears, dont cry.  This crisp evening shouldn't be sad but full of wonderful tings like you and me holding hands in the starlight sky.

What started as a simple lyrical comment, turned into a beautiful conversation.  Go ahead, endulge...

Did it feel good when you kicked me down?

Tell me did it make you stronger when you pushed me off?

Does every tear of mine make you laugh harder?

Go ahead, rub dirt in my face, spit on me

See how far it gets you away from here

Ill be the one in the one who gets the last laugh

Knowing ill see you laying poor and worthless on a corner somewhere

Ill extend my hand to you still, contemplate my decision

Think of how you fucked me over,

Ill laugh and in spit your face, and mutter a fuck off

Good riddens to you bitch

each second ticking bye

lean back, everything spins

finishing of my good friend Jack

close my eyes to stop the dizzying

only for a tear to be free

why here? why me? why now? why not?

roll another pray it takes it all away

burning the paper, wash it down with a shot or two

only moments left, nothing will be here anymore

if only it wasn't so piercing so harsh so brutal so true

sick of the reality bullshit

nothings even real anymore

leave it all behind and go forward

let Jack be my leader for the rest of this eternal night

#1 - The first rule of Fight Club is, you do not talk about Fight Club.

#2 - The second rule of Fight Club is, you DO NOT talk about Fight Club.

#3 - If someone says stop, goes limp, taps out, the fight is over.

#4 - Two guys to a fight.

#5 - One fight at a time.

#6 - No shirts, no shoes.

#7 - Fights will go on as long as they have to.

#8 - If this is your first night at Fight Club, you have to fight.

jumpin around loving all about

smiling tears of joy we shout

good times well have today

then ill stop and look at you to say

what a beautiful smile you carry

you really are the one id love to marry

spend my time enjoyin the years

have a couple drinks, maybe a few beers

regardless of what we do

i will always have you

~Yours truely~

Every spoken word, slashes at my wrist

Each lusting thought, pulling me aside

Slice me, Dice me, beat me if you will

Ill do what it takes, to be beside you

Denial, rejection, i will overcome

You are worth more than to give up now

Traveled far enough to now turn back

Each cut, with the burn comes life

With the scab comes strength

As you make me bleed, you only make me strong

My heart seaping, only to grow thicker

Only growing intent all for you

In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round
I stand there for a minute starin’ straight into the ground
Lookin’ to the left slightly, then lookin’ back down
World feels like it’s caved in – proper sorry frown
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship, if you must
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over like she’s lookin’ straight through me
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she’s lookin’ down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now
It’s over

So then I move my hand up from down by my side
It's shakin’, my life is crashin’ before my eyes
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh
‘Cause I can’t imagine my life without you and me
There’s things I can’t imagine doin’, things I can’t imagine seein’
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I beg you please
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she’s blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushin’ my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now
It’s over

And I’m just standin’ there, I can’t say a word
‘Cause everythin’s just gone
I’ve got nothin’
Absolutely nothin’

Tryin’ to pull her close out of bare desperation
Put my arms around her tryin’ to change what she’s sayin’
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in
Look into her eyes to make her listen again
I’m not gonna fuckin’, just fuckin’ leave it all now
‘Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow
And you’re gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You’re well out of order now, this is well out of town
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight
Turns around so she’s now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now
It’s over

I know in the past I’ve found it hard to say
Tellin’ you things, but not tellin’ straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it’s hard to take but her mind has been made up
There’s plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you’ve got to walk away now.

I know i copied you E$, but this song is great

Sitting, Smoking, Feeling high.

And in this, moment, oh, it feels so right...